i'm not a defeatist. i'm not pessimist. but somethings, even a complete optimist is scared to believe in. so here's the real confessional. i don't think it'll come to anything. i don't believe because i'm too scared to believe. because if i really and truly believe, it'll break me.

heh. such melodrama. that's why one shouldn't sleep alone.

right. i just wrote a post. then i cancelled it. guess i'm just conflicted. becoming a natural state of mind for me.

the good thing is, atleast i can blow bubbles from bubble gum. guess i finally found a good teacher.